I decided to write a blog because 1) I tend to keep a lot in 2) I have a lot I want to say but never do 3) when I get the opportunity to say what I want to, I've forgotten it already...
Summer started off AMAZINGLY! After my last three exams on Wednesday, Average Joe (bff) and I played guitar under the Tree (THE tree ;] ) at our community college, which attracted all sorts of people of most interesting natures. It was the first hour of pure care-free joy I had had in a long time. School has really weighed down on me seeing that it has been the year to "shine" as my Mom would say, since I needed to do well for the upcoming College Apps. So after all that pressure was over and I had squeezed every drop of energy and brain power out of my body, I was so happy I honestly didn't know what to do with myself.
I think people all over the world work as hard as I did that last week of school, and yet they man-up and move on with life a lot better than I did. I treat those last weeks of school as if I had done something really special and praiseworthy, when in reality hardwork is just one of life's necessary ingredients.
After tree-side guitar playin, I hung out with Nat D. Itnoc, Average Joe, and their Lovely Assistant and we recorded some music downtown, almost getting in trouble with the law (funny story). I hope we have lots of adventures like that soon-what a rush it was, being with friends, having good clean fun, and adding the element of possible danger...there's not much like it :)
The Lovely Assistant (bff :] ) and I had a good spiritual conversation on our way from her house to church the next morning. I haven't had one in a long time. I've managed to kill most relationships the past few weeks, including that between God and me, and I am realling feeling it. I almost feel as if I've never been saved and I have to start all over, because I've forgotten everything about Him and how to have a relationship with Him, except just my own head-knowledge of Him. There's no heart knowledge, as it were, ("and it most definately were," as Big Bro would say).
I hope all that changes soon. I believe this summer to be very promising. Perhaps hope is a better word.
All for now.
Jenna
Oh my word. This was one of the best days of my life =) I really needed it... I was really having a hard time facing my life. I was really down, and I'm sorry, I tried really hard not to bring you (or anyone else) down with me, cause I knew you were all so happy because school was done. I hope I didn't. But hanging out with you guys really brought my spirits up, and I realized there was some hope for the future, and it isn't all goodbye's and feeling left behind. I needed a little reminder that God is still in control, and He is bringing all things together for my good... and "the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is going to be revealed to us." "For the mindset of the flesh is death, but the mindset of the Spirit is life and peace." I need a mind of the Spirit.
ReplyDeleteBy they way, I forgot to put sunscreen on today, and I'm super burnt on my shoulders... they're going to be so wrinkly and gross when I'm old. =/
PS. I'm your first follower! =)
ReplyDeleteyou should tell the whole story of the almost-getting-in-trouble-with-the-law story... It's one I'll never forget!
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